Wednesday, July 9, 2014

A New........Something?

Have you all been in this position?  Sitting here at newly 40 wondering what am I doing?  Do I need this stress?  Is this where I stall out?

I've been reviewing my life lately, and while I see I have climbed the ladder in my field (not easy for a woman). I find myself feeling a bit, hmmm. what would be the word, maybe unfulfilled.  Not in my family life, I feel very full there and fortunate to have the family we have, if not a bit overwhelmed at times.  Although, in my individuality, that encompasses my work and hobbies and such, am I in a rut?  Is there no where else for me to go?  Have I peaked?  Well, I certainly hope not, and reach out to no not at all.

I have been reviewing lately and want to move on to the new chapter.  that is what the big 4-0 is, isn't it?  The beginning of the next chapter?  With a 10 year old and 10 month old at home, where can I go?  Right now my life seems devoted to children and babysitting parents.  Can I break away from this cycle, even just a little?  I certainly hope so, and while I have no answers to any of these brilliant questions right now.........meh, maybe soon?

Sydney and Mark Hanging.....

I have 3 amazing daughters and 1 amazing grandchild.  Even though I do not hardly get to see the grandchild and her mother, technology is amazing these days.  Enabling us so much more connection and communication than ever before.
Piper (purple) & Lynlee (Auntie & niece)


So here's to wishing I could find that stay at home job that would support my family and allow me to live on the mountain home place I drive by in Lewistown all the time thinking someday........


Friday, April 25, 2014

Medication, Education and Spring

Spring is here, finally!!  We have been soooo waiting for this spring.  For some reason this last winter seemed to last forever.  I think it was just so much colder.  Or maybe it was just me, lamenting the ever more hateful cold weather as I get older.

I have been trying to slip in a little spring cleaning here and there.  What I realized is that when we moved I did a lot of that and there is not much left to weed out.

The next step will be the storage unit once we have the porch built.  A lot of that can move over.  Since they raise the rental rates on their storage units every 6 months I am anxious to get out of there!  Typical for this area.

Piper got the nasty flu bug a couple weeks ago and we survived.  She lost 2lbs in 4 days and got dehydrated, but we made it.

I hate it when little ones get sick, they can't even tell you what is wrong, they just feel miserable.

Hailey has been grounded for having a failing grade in Science.  I have even taken her out of soccer until she can get the grade up.  Her attitude tonight was, "I don't care, I can just be grounded."

The point is she is supposed to care.  She is supposed to care that she is failing and she is supposed to care that she is grounded so she'll want to be ungrounded.  I can tell her teacher is frustrated with her because she won't help her out anymore either.  It shows in Hailey, she won't even ask for help anymore because she knows her teacher won't.

Hailey forgot her Science book at school and ran back to grab it before getting on the bus, the teacher told her she was too late and could not get it.  I am frustrated with her teacher.

Hailey has issues focusing, not bad, but more than some kids.  Not at a needs medication level, although that is what the school has been pushing.  Medicate, medicate, medicate.  How about teaching her how to deal with it and manage it herself?  Cause you know what she'll probably be like this her whole life.  Medication isn't ALWAYS the answer people. 

Does anyone else have issues with this?  How do you cope?

She has a lazy teacher this year also, who does not want to work with her at all.  Last year her teacher was awesome and Hailey did great with her, all A's and B's.  Yeah, we had to get on her sometimes when she would slack off, but don't you with any kid?



Tuesday, April 1, 2014

New additions

Let me start by saying we survived Christmas.  I'm not sure exactly how, but we did.  Piper and the puppy are both 7 months old now and learning together.  It has been interesting to say the least and I cannot wait to get a fence in around my back yard so I can quit tying up the puppy during the day.

It would actually have to quit snowing some day for that to happen.  Yes, it has still been snowing here, BLAH!  In fact, my daughter's soccer game was canceled today because there is still snow on the field.

So everyone knows, I am a Grandma now!  What a year!  We have a new grand daughter born in December, Lynlee.  She is a doll, and I wish I could see her more often.  They are so far away!

This picture was from in January.  Isn't she adorable?!?!?!  Who could resist this?

This is Jessie, Sydney and Lynlee at Christmas.  We did not get to see them then, but we did get to visit them in January at Sydney's in-laws to see the new grandbaby.

It's been too long, time to see them again!

So we have been busy, busy.  The new house is nice.  Our yard is ghetto disaster!  Can't do much about it until spring actually decides to show up and stick around.  I'm very anxious for that because I cannot stand the ghetto mess right now, it's driving my OCD insane!  Mark knows it too, and I think he gets a kick out of watching me squirm.

So, hope all is well in your neck of the woods. 

Keep smilin'!  :)


Monday, November 25, 2013


Ok here is the long and short of it.

First of all, we had this little sweet heart August 16th.  She is the happiest baby I've ever seen, except when she isn't.  Well, you know what I mean.

Then in October my husband, yes MY HUSBAND, added this to our lot.  My life has been flipped on it's head!

Hailey has had a birthday and is now 10!  Yep, you heard me right, 10!!!

Grandma moved in across the street the beginning of November.  That is actually a picture of her with Liliah (my great niece) when she was a baby.

To top the year off we will be receiving a new house December 21st.  YES, RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS!!!!  Um, needless to say I am NOT decorating for Christmas this year and hopefully we will survive the holidays this year without killing each other.

No, I'm serious, it will probably be our little Christmas miracle if we all survive unscathed!

If I don't make it back here before then, Happy Holidays!!!

P.S.  Did I tell you my computer crashed?  Haven't replaced it yet.....


Friday, April 12, 2013


So I've been holding out on all of you, my blogging friends.  Do you know how things kind-of snow ball and next thing you know it has been months since you blogged?

Top that off with being exhausted and sick for about 4 months and, well, motivation was not real high.  So here is the incredible news.  I'm pregnant!  Holy Crap!  We were not planning it, or trying, or talking about it, or thinking about it, or, or, or, or, well.......anyway I am.

As someone told me, I'm not sure who as I have been in a daze for a few months, babbling incoherently, with utterances of baby leaving my lips here and there.  Anyway, as someone said to me, "Everything happens for a reason, even if we do not know that reason".  Huh!

Here is a 3-D shot of new baby Lemerond.
Well I can tell you I do NOT know the reason, but we are riding the wave.  Of course, because evidently some where along the line I got old, I am considered a high risk pregnancy.  So this means more doctors visits, tests, blood being drained from my body like I'm secretly supplying a vampire colony somewhere.  OK, maybe that last bit was a slight exaggeration.  Or not.

Then........we recently found out that not only is my niece pregnant again (due in October)......but my stepdaughter is pregnant also (due in December)!  WOW!!!!  We are dropping babies here like nobodies business!

This means that Mark and I will become new parents (in August), then great Aunt/Uncles again in October and THEN.....(drum roll please).......GRANDPARENTS in December!!!  WTH?!

Our family is so hodge podge and weird, you have to love it!

So, I feel old with this pregnancy.  The nausea has pretty much gone away, but I am very tired and so SORE!  It's another large baby.  Already 4.5cm head and 14oz at 20 weeks.  I am now 21 weeks along this week. 

What I want to know is where do the big a** babies come from?!  No one else in my family has these huge babies!  They all have nice little 6 and 7 pound babies!  Not me though, nooooooo, mine have to be 9lbs and head the size of watermelons!  You laugh, but my daughter's head was 15cm, a woman dilates to 10cm, you do the math!  OK, so maybe I'm a little jealous.  Rant over.  For now.

Daisy, you couldn't have said it better, this is exactly how I feel!!!

OK, so process, discuss, comment, do what you do.....

I'll be back again,